the passion I live for..

She is my strength, my happiness, my joy.

She is the only one I'll ever love.

She's real not fake not a decoy.

I can't imagine what the future be like 

if she left so soon.

My heart would be dried up like a desert and lost in a dune.

Every time I'm near her my heart starts pounding

and I can feel the warmth her smile projects around the room.

She's the only one I'll ever care for 

and I 'll never let go of  the scent of her sweet perfume.

She's the light that defeats my darkness 

and the empress that sits on my throne.

She's my Cinderella 

the one whom I can call my own.

It doesn't matter what ups and downs there are 

I can endure every mood swing.

I'm just waiting for the next few years 

when I can pop out the question and pull out the ring.

I'm looking forward to the times ahead of us as we make new memories.

Our love is like a chemical change 

unbreakable no one can reverse our chemistry.

She's the book that keeps me wrapped up always wanting more.

She is the one and only passion I Live for.

Love is free..

Love is a free thing

so free and flightless

no strings attached

to this airy thing

so tangled and loose

rose in our hearts

tightened our own grips

and forgot true meaning

love needn't any obligations

no rules no ties

love is so lovely 

it comes in all sizes

love is carried n wisped

I love you 

I'm not afraid

I loved you

it feels free to love 

all things

no strings attached

heart is fully on line.

If they were mine to give..

I would give you the oceans

if they were mine to give

but they belong to the shore

and the shore

would be certain to miss them 

very much.

I would give you all of the stars 

if they were mine to give 

but they belong in the nights's sky

and darkness would fall 

without its glittering beans

and that would never do.

I would give you the moon

if it were mine to give

but it belongs to the tide

and to be honest

I'm not quite sure

where you would put

something

so monstrously big

in your little house.

You know 

I think it might be better

if I just give you

all of my love 

from now until forever

and that would fit

in your heart 

just perfectly.

Her name...

Her name is that of a flower

much like the ones you find

in the middle of a beautiful field

just living life and being so beautiful

without much effort

just swaying in the wind

and kissing the morning sunshine

smiling at the ladybugs 

as they flit by

she is just like that flower

innocent

a part of nature and 

a glorious sight for sore eyes 

I long to pick her 

and put her in a vase

to capture her essence

but alas,  we all know what happens

when we take a flower from 

its natural home

and ask it to live to its fullest

while its roots are drowning in tap water.

What's life without that dream..

What's life without a dream

that gives you sleepless nights

that sets your heart on fire

a burning desire.

That makes you restless

until you meet with success

with finesse

nothing less.

That which makes you chase it 

that which doesn't let you quit 

your heart and soul, you submit

to live it

to be it.

Whats's life without that dream

what's life without that dream..

I have seen the magic..

I have seen the magic of tall mountains 

blood red sunsets sinking down on my life

walked oak wooded dales and leafy larch lanes.

But I really wish you were here.

Kicked up soft sand on a pink coral beach 

run barefoot through fields of barley and corn

felt fresh falling rain on my upturned face.

But I really wish you were here.

To share one moment of lavender scent 

laughter and light as you walk in the room

may I forfeit all the wonders I've seen 

for a touch, a mere whisper of you .

I scan velvet skies for your star each night

oh, I really wish you were here.

Love..

Love is love

even though 

her heart doesn't fit yours.

Love is love 

even though

her hands were holding

another universe.

Love is love

even though 

her lips never land on yours.

Love is love 

even though

her moon never shined back.

And love is still love 

even though

it was not meant for you.

I feel love..

I feel life

I feel love

Like I have never before

the sun on the mountain tops

melting through the ice 

I look into your eyes 

and see an ocean

of blue and green light

I never knew those smiles

could do so much

It's like a breath of fresh air

like a taste of freedom

that I've never had before

I gaze into the sky

the moon shining right back

the light from the stars

waiting for you and me

and I feel

Love .

Rain...

I sat by the window on the chair

with a cup of tea 

resting my feet 

trying to forget me.

Watched the rain

dripping on the window pane

again and again

but never the same.

Drops racing 

sometimes embracing

colliding

and disappearing.

Wish I wasn't here

want you near

but that turns to tears

everytime you appear.

And still the rain drips

drinking tea in slow sips

knowing my heart flips 

as we are passing ships.

PS I Love you.

Awake..

The night casts its long shadow over my flesh and blood 

yet my body chooses not to fall 

into the natural rhythms of slumber 

my eyelids are made of stone and are locked securely in place

my imagination runs amok and dreams fill up my void

the singing crickets punctuates the conversation with myself

days long since past are still fresh in my memory

I feel like ideas are surging through my head 

ready to burst through my eardrums

but my arms and legs do not match my metaphysical wishes

they are numb and useless

like a slow a river 

the bed seems to carry me to eternity

gently taking me to a place far away

I need to rest so badly 

the pangs of responsibility echo through my being

I have things to do  

I have people to meet

Its a curse

to never be able to match the cycle of the light 

to bear witness to the passing of time

locked in a coffin of consciousness

the sun is back 

its time to drag this empty husk out of bed

light pours through the blinds in an endless stream

No arouse yourself from this folly

the shadow still remains

you were always wide awake

hopelessly thinking of tomorrow

pondering this night until daybreak. 

On the way to success...

Study while others are playing

plan while others are sleeping.

Start while others are procrastinating

decide while others are delaying.

Listen while others are talking

talk while others are babbling.

Smile while others are frowning

appreciate while others are complaining.

Act while others are daydreaming

believe while others are doubting.

Rest while others are stopping

persist while others are quitting.

More than that...

I constructed myself in a way 

the moment I met you

I'm not just a kid anymore

because suddenly 

in your eyes 

I'm more than that.

Take me by the hand 

I'll say things too

All the things I've never said

to any friend

and spend days in wonder

if we could ever be 

more than that.

I'd love to watch the years pass

our story to unfold

you are my greatest adventure

how could I ever want

more than that?

Until you're like a stranger 

like someone I never knew

what does it matter?

all this time

and you had me thinking

I was more than that..

Silence..

Silence

It's every troubled soul's fear 

and every stressed soul's lust.

Silence

It's where thoughts are able to be heard 

and minds are lost in the chaos.

Silence 

It's the sworn oath of secrets 

and the sworn enemy of questions.

Silence 

It's the living mans unused right 

and the dead man's final request.

Silence 

It's the haven poets go to vent 

and the prison psychopaths try to escape.

Always remember..

Always remember to forget

the things that made you sad 

but never forget to remember

the things that made you glad.

Always remember to forget 

the friends that proved untrue

but don't forget to remember 

those have struck by you.

Always remember to forget

the troubles that have passed away

but never forget to remember

the blessings that come each day.

A mother's love..

A mother's love is never faltering 

a mother's love is never halting

a mother's judgement is never erring

a mother's dream is to supply all needs

a mother's goal is to instill good deeds

a mother's commitment is to the one, she loves

a mother's reward is thanks for all of the above.

She says

she will always protect you all your life

just to see that there is no danger or strife

for a sharing of love is my duty to you

your happiness is all I want

I'll guarantee to make you safe and true

I'll kiss your scars so they won't hurt you 

I'll buy you nice things for school

maybe new shoes or a bag

my love will stay forever and ever

to you I'll never say never

my love for you shall never fade

and that's the promise that I've made.

Space

Space 

feel the word

dissect it

look closer

and inspect it.

if you don't hate

then love it.

Be lost in it

respect it

when you find it

don't neglect it.

Share the space 

direct it

to those 

who least expect it.

Less is more

when you walk

out of the door..

Can't find the words..

I want to get past your eyes

try to find what's in your mind.

I want to hide in your smile

get to know you deep inside.

Because beauty's not always 

only skin deep

and secrets aren't always 

better to keep.

I have got so much to say 

I need to tell you now.

But I can't find the words 

can't fight my fear

I hold my breath

everytime you are near.

Can't get the nerve

can't play the part

you hold the key 

to this silent heart.

My love so desperately 

needs to be heard 

But I can't find the words..

Stars like glass..

The hand of the sky

with its paintbrush of blue

slid over the heavens

above me and you.

And over the course

of the brisk autumn day

it painted the sky

every color but grey.

From the warmth of the morning

filled with its light 

to the azure of the evening

leading into the night.

Then as dark drew near

the hand painted its last 

and filled out vision

with stars like glass.

her lips..

Her lips 

so red

so tender 

so delicate

a whole galaxy 

lies within them,

galaxy of love.

I always imagine 

what will they feel like 

when pressed against 

my dry hard lips

would feel the love

I have for you

or would you feel 

what I'm trying to hide from you.

I would love 

to kiss you someday

all day long

all night long

to just know

that you were even real..

Life and death...

the only certainty in life is death

the only thing we can be sure of us on this earth 

from the time of our birth

is that at some point 

we will have our last breath.

our days are numbered, our clock is ticking

its only a matter of time until time has swept us under

time is running out so what else in life are we missing 

today is almost over but what about tomorrow, I wonder.

the life we live is infinitely finite 

each event a thread weaved into one 

we are all quickly fading but will be alive to see the sun.

the only certainty in life is death 

the only thing we can be sure of on this earth

lies not within our worth

but rather the exact moment when we run out of breath.

I miss you..

I miss you 

like the waves miss the shore

every moment apart is too distant

they come back running

each time more passionate than before.

I miss you

like the leaves miss the breeze

with each passing gust of wind

they rush to fall from the trees.

I miss you

like the sailor misses the sea

to each voyage he gives of himself completely

for

on solid ground he never wants to be.

I miss you

even before you give me a reason to 

before you go

I begin to miss you.

My only hope is that 

you miss me too..

It takes..

Sometimes it takes a man to fall

to know the struggles through it all 

to find out where it is he will stand.

It takes many fallen tears to cry

to know that he can still remain strong

to know he can make right the wrong

and know he is not alone here.

Pain it can teach what one don't understand

that the dreams are never gone

and you have to learn to be still

if you want  to keep on moving on.

Sometimes it takes a man inside to die 

to feel a heart beat made of stone

to know that his soul is real and alive.

I look at you..

We're always days apart

quite not the best way to start

didn't have an exciting forepart

how I wish we could restart.

The days we're not together

sometimes makes me wonder

do you miss me or am I just eager

to feel you again like yester.

I touch your face n feel your glow

time seems so slow

I'm with you that's all I know

I won't leave you like a shadow.

The way you talk, way you smile

your touch is too fragile 

won't let go an inch or a mile

'til I walk with you down the aisle.

Of all that we've been through

all else may seem untrue

all I know is I'd love to say 'I do'

every time I look at you. 

Sunlight..

Suddenly

there was sun

I wanted to bask in it

to take it all in

the rays touched me 

talked to me ways

people around couldn't

I couldn't put on sunscreen

the way this feels

enriching and enligtening

I would never put a mask

between it and myself.

Maybe..

Maybe 

the reason

I keep writing about you

is because I'm not ready

to write about someone else.

I feel you

between my words.

Your absence 

walks beside me.

Maybe

I like this stupid ache.

It's not fair 

to anyone

to be compared to you.

Instead of noticing girls

I sit with your essence

It's still here

and the words

are still coming out.

Maybe 

this is the closest 

I can get

to kneeling before you.

Just a grey moth.

I'm just a grey moth

among bright butterflies

I bob on small wings

to the safety of 

your cheek

dusting 

a light mark of powder.

Your freckles

I tickle with tiny feet

my antennae 

tingle 

to the glow

of your soul

flicker of eyelashes

you my flame 

be gentle 

my love.

Something about rage...

I use the rage 

to fuel my fire

I think about 

my past  desire

despite my love 

gone lost

it pains me 

with such cost

I fuel my fire

with images of us

I remember 

all the pain and mistrust

Despite my pretentious past

the dumb bells in my hands, I grasp.

I workout 

to my own tune

I'll leave you behind 

like apple left zune.

Listen...

Listen to me thru tears

rescue me from my fears

acknowledge

my pain

help me

understand

this journey..

Make 

my transitions in life

less severe

with 

no more confusion

and pain,

fears and never, no no never

be shy

to say help me!

Elevate me

make my heart leap

make me feel

at one

with you

Jesus.

Settle me down tonight

let me 

feel your love

let me sleep

at your feet

let me breathe

that fresh new life.

Wrap your wings 

around me

comfort me

fly with me 

my Lord

For I love thee...!!

all I wanted..

all I wanted was someone to love me

all I wanted was someone to love

all I wanted was to love them

more than anyone else.

all I wanted to love you

all I wanted to show you

how much you meant to me

all I wanted was for you to deal with me

even if it got hard.

all I wanted was someone 

who would hold my hand

all thats left is stitching

from the heart that you took

and the person you left cold.

all I wanted was for you to love me

all I wanted was to love you.

the most beautiful thing....

Broken pieces

shattered on the floor

the broken pieces of my heart

just left scattered

but then out of the blue

she showed up

and put me back together

no, even better

she made me  

something better

someone better

as cheesy as it sounds

she showed me what love was

what true love was

she's my living proof

that all the past heartbreaks

and heartaches

and all the waiting

were worth it

because she's worth it

we are worth it

and I swear 

that I'll always 

be your side

and not mess this thing up

because

this love

that we share

is far by

the most beautiful thing

in my world.

Breaking silence..

Its the silence

Right before the sky roars

and lightning strikes.

Before wind claws at the walls

leaving behind the thick heavy air.

Before the sky lets loose

the hell of a tornado.

Before the ocean's wrath

while it devours and takes.

But its the silence afterall

that aches the most.

Leaving behind shaking hands

of trembling fear.

Worth..

You are not

worthless.

You are worth

more than all

the stars in

the sky.

More than all

the waves that

kiss the shore.

More than all

the birds that

fly the skies.

More than all

the clouds that

float on by.

More than all

the wishes dreamers

make upon dandelions.

You are worth 

something.

Just good friends..

With every smile 

with every glance

my hopes are raised

my joy enhanced

I'm on a high

it's such a rush

So I make a move

my heart is crushed.

Was wishful thinking

on my part

I lost my head

and followed my heart

I learnt to see

what wasn't there

her love for me 

is now elsewhere.

Will I ever learn

not to take the bait 

that drop dead smile

that seals my fate

it reels me in

and I can't break free

I'm filled with a

false sense of security.

So again I'm struck

deep to the heart

with the realization

we are apart

the love we shared

has ceased to be

so from now on 

just good friends are we.