Faked love..

I gave you all I ever was

but it was I who couldn't see

relationships are meant for those

who bloom petals of love.

How could I be so foolish

to mistake these lacerations

on my feeble fingers

a constant reminder of the lights

that saw both the moon and sun

as dazzling leaves bleeding visions of euphoria.

It was I who mistook her grin

for the sunshine my soul lacked

where my ignorance sang of love

her serrated tongue whispered of clouds

and rainy days

my garden of thoughts

wilting with every word

that took my spirit away.

On the outside..

On the outside you'll see me laughing

a quick glance you'll see a smile

it appears that all is well

but it only last a short while

You can't hear the voices I do,

that say give up, you're gonna fail

each day brings a new battle

one that seems so hard to prevail.

the dark of night doesn't bring me peace

with the haunting dreams that I see

some reminding me the pain of past

others the happiness I wish could be.

The pain leaves no visible scars

hiding away inside the heart and the mind

each day it becomes more difficult to bare

looking for happiness I'm unable to find.

On the outside you'll see me laughing

A quick glance you'll see a smile

it appears that all is well

But it'll only last a short while.

It kills me..

It kills me when we don't talk

it kills when you ignore me

it kills when you're busy with your life

It kills me.

It kills when you don't understand

it kills when you put me in pain

it kills when you don't care

It kills me.

It kills when you walk away

it kills when you forget about us

it kills when you push me aside

It kills me.

It kills when you don't listen

it kills when you're not here

it kills when you smile at him

It kills me.

Someday..

Someday you'll know,

the strangest feelings

of your heart

sum up

your love for me.

You'll pronounce my name finally,

with love and faith.

You'll search for me,

with a hand full of flowers.

When you'll reach,

I'll be lying in my graveyard.

Maybe still waiting for you

or maybe I'll be carefree already.