breaking apart...

There are days,

when you feel like you're not enough.

Days where you,

wish you weren't here at all.

You see everything around you change,

and it seems like you're struck in the dark.

You put on a facade,

to hide that deep down

you're breaking into

a million little pieces.

You wish there was a light 

at the end of the tunnel

wish there was a way 

that you could be convinced.

That in the end,

it will be alright.

At some point in our lives,

we just have to take a step back

and allow ourselves

to break apart.

Reconstruct and begin

to find the walls 

to put us back together.

Never hiding, but never staying in our shelter.

Just take my hand,

we'll make it through this together.

Reality.

Let's escape from this world

let the skateboards be  our guide

let the music fill our bodies

let the wind run through our hair

Let us laugh till we have no breath

let us shout as loud as we want

let us kiss like there is no tomorrow

let me hold you and enjoy your company

for we have nothing to lose.

But life is not as easy 

let me go back to reality

let me realize that I've no freedom

let me realize that you left me

let me realize this is not a fairy tale.

Forgetting..

Love is so easy

forgetting is so hard.

I remember every moment I'm alone

With you in the companionship of silence.

What do you think,

Where will I go now?

Staring into the blue ocean of your eyes.

Love is so short,

forgetting is so long.

I remember every inch of you in my dreams

Without you in my empty room tonight.

What do you dream, 

where do you go now?

Staring at two ceilings across two oceans.

Love is so full, 

forgetting is so empty.

I remember your every electric touch

Without you, my world could not turn.

What do you feel, 

where do we go now?

Staring at the deep ocean of our love.

A Failure's prayer

Me prays to thee,

Oh Lord

to shine your light upon me

'cause its been dark in here for so long.

I wonder how the sun rays feel like?

The cold has chilled me to my rotted bones.

I have forgotten how the warmth of joy feels like.

This endless failure has wounded me to my core..

Let me taste success for once?

Grant me the fruits I have laboured for

Bring me the mirth I have dreamed of

Shower your blessings upon me, once?

I pray to thee,

Oh Lord

with my heart and soul.

All yours.

Ignorance is bliss..

They told me once

that ignorance is bliss

and I never quite figured out

exactly what they meant

but the older I get

the more I long to forget

that all hope has been lost

In this land of the dead

but if you knew not

your right from your wrong

you wouldn't question

where you belong

you would see no difference

be content

in this meaningless existence

for it's not until you actually know the truth

that it can begin to destroy you

just like I

now, with lifeless eyes

I know the lies

and now I despise

absolutely everything

I understand what they mean

it is much easier

when you don't know

shit about anything..

PS I Love you.

Somewhere

between here and there

I found you

and at first

I couldn't quite believe it.

Tired eyes grow accustomed

to the dark

if you live there

long enough.

Even then, I always loved the way

the sun set every night

to give the moon a chance to shine.

They say

a butterfly can flap its wings

and cause a hurricane

on the other side of the world.

But one flick of your eyelashes

could do so much more.

Your love circles

laps inside me

consuming everything it touches.

Until what's left for me, is simply you.

Bodies. Minds. Souls.

uniting as one.

Lost no more.

You're magic..

Dear love,

I was lying on the floor

like a hopeless solitary object,

gazing at your beautiful picture

evoking a feeling of serenity

your eyes are like two shining black moons

in a white sky of eternal peace.

Why are you so far away from me?

It rained inside my body

my heart wept for long.

I felt lonely

I needed your physical presence

to soothe my soul

but you were not there

150 miles separate us,

I couldn't bear the distance anymore

I screamed

I shouted

I begged to God

and then

after minutes of shattered emotions

I went numb.

All I could hear was a mild beat

I was awestruck to find you in my heart

tears were rolling down on my cheek.

I felt you

and I was coming back to life.

Did I ever tell you,

that you're magic?