FOREVER

I'm afraid of losing you forever

So I stay quiet

and shut my mouth

get on with things

but maybe it'd be better

if the words were said 

questions asked

feelings felt and dealt with

so that, even if I lose you

At least I'll know I tried 

I'm afraid of losing you forever

but night will turn to day

frost will melt away

and I'll learn to stop loving you

and I'll learn how to see 

my own reflection in the glass 

instead of your footprints

smudged across the surface

I'll learn to bask in sunlight

and read books by ponds 

and watch the sun sink 

behind orange clouds

and I'll do it all alone

and I'll be okay with that

I'm afraid of losing you forever

but even more so,

I'm afraid of losing myself

to a love that maybe 

isn't worth fighting for

I'm afraid of losing me forever.