Just wanted to..

I just wanted you to know me

I just wanted you to love me

I just wanted you to feel me

I just wanted you to hug me

I just wanted you to touch me

I just wanted you to breathe me

I just wanted you to keep me

I just wanted you to believe me

I just wanted you to want me

I just wanted you to haunt me

I just wanted you to pray me

I just wanted you to hunt me

I just wanted you to kiss me

I just wanted you to see me

Now I wish you would just leave me.

Like a moth to a flame..

Like a moth to a flame

a place of closed doors

and glimmering light

thoughts to dream

the fantasy of life

there is just something about you

something about those eyes

that keeps the fire alive

can two souls connect so deeply

they may physically touch?

can one heat get so hot 

it ignites an earthly sinful lust?

keep your silver spoons

and all your fancy wine

you can have your red carpet night

even diamonds couldn't give light

to the blind

as long as this dies

but it engulfs me

I shall accept the gift of scars

for even if the fire burns out

they are the remnants 

of what we are. 

Forgive me.

Forgive me, 

I know I'm not perfect

my loving ways aren't perfect

but my love for you is real 

fear may have concucted my mind

fortune tellers may be redundant in this matter and 

somewhere along the way I will hurt you

but don't let the hardships change the way you perceive me

the way you turn my imagination into reality

my soul recognizes your scent instantly

my heart has countless beats

when I pour my feelings to you

when I contemplate on the windows of your soul

that lets me into your garden of mind

that lets me rest for a while in your deep breaths

'cause really what's life with getting the wrong direction

I lack patience

Sometimes I ride way too hard on my sense of humour

I'm misunderstood of my sarcastic ways

of my ironic mindset of love's understanding

ups and down mend our connection  

melancholy, interestingly keeps us intact

forgive me, 

for I am not perfect

speak up, 

might wanna change my ways.. 

I and you..

I didn't fall in love with you

I walked in love with you

with my eyes wide open

choosing to take

every step along the way

I do believe in fate and destiny

but I also believe

We are only fated

to do things

that we'd choose anyway.

And I'd choose you

in a hundred lifetimes

in a hundred worlds

in any version of reality

I'd find you

and I could choose you.

To be...

To be the reason you breathe

Your every thought

Your every dream

Your purpose in life

Would be the reason I breathe

To be what makes you believe

Your reason for living

Your reason for smiling

Your motivation for existing

Would be what makes me believe

To be the one you depend on

Your rock when you need to lean

Your shoulder when you need to cry

Your soft place to land, when life's too hard

Would be the only thing I could depend on

To be the one who helps you feel strong

Your innocence when it doesn't belong

Your heart when yours breaks in two

Your soul when its shattered too

Would be what makes me feel strong

And all of these things

To breathe and believe

To depend on, to feel strong

I only need you

To feel that I belong.

My melancholy...!!!

Just because I write sad and depressive

please don't think I hate myself

I actually like myself a lot

I just hate to feel depressed

Being depressed is not what I choose to do.

And please don't think I have no friends because I do

And please don't see me as a sad freak

because I'm not.

Please know that sometimes

life in general can overwhelm me

so I isolate myself from the world

The world is corrupted anyway

So I don't really care

I'm not missing anything

And please don't think

it is a bad thing

I'd rather isolate

than to be out in the world

making bad choices

It is my comfort place

Please understand there are reasons

for the way I feel

And please don't tell me to take

medicines or drugs

That's not the cure for me

And please know

I would never hurt myself

And yes

I smile too.

Please don't worry

I'll be okay..

Clear vision..

I didn't believe it this time

I was so scared of the past

that when it was in the palms of my hands

I was too scared thinking again

it wouldn't last

So I pushed away the fear

and in the process you flew

having a more clear vision

I now see things as new.

I didn't quite understand

I didn't believe

but now my mind has changed

we will beat the odds, we will achieve.

Take your time please

but when you  are ready take my hand

I will show you love and acceptance

I will keep you safe when you land.