If ever..

If ever

I disappear from this world

If ever 

my existence has returned to dust

scatter me in the night sky

submerge me with the stars

So I will lay down on the cosy heaven

gazing down on you

you'll make the earth so fine

even the stars will be in love with you.

Happy New Year

It's a new year

and a new day

shining up bright

celebrate up right

build a new life

and a new you

fight for your right

and spread the light

be kind to everyone

and hate no one.

New Year's Eve

As the colors explode

on the pitch dark sky

lights begin crawling 

in my gazing eyes

I look out of the window

and realize

everything was temporary

and it is only me

by my side

Like how fast it goes

a year has gone

embracing myself 

for the new chapter

that has come.

A daydream..

I hope you find someone, 

who never makes you question your own self-worth.

I hope you find someone,

who chases your happiness as much as their own.

I hope you find someone,

who supports you in the things you're passionate about.

I hope you find someone,

whom you can laugh with and sit in silence with.

I hope you find someone,

with whom you can share your deepest secrets.

I hope you find someone,

who is your lover, your partner and your friend.

I hope you find someone,

who treats you as their equal.

I hope you find someone,

who learns and grows with and beside you.

I hope you find someone,

who appreciates all the tiny details that make up who you're.

I hope you find someone,

who respects your heart, your family and your values.

I hope you find someone,who reminds you that you deserve the love you give.

If I could..

If I could wake up tomorrow

And be someone new

I'd hope to be someone

that didn't care about you.

A person who wakes up 

and smiles at the sun

not a loner

who hides from fun.

Someone who looks in the mirror 

and values himself

not insecure

loathing themself.

I wish to be someone

free as a bird

not someone who cares

what others have heard.

But when I wake up

I will still be me

hoping and wishing

oneday I'll be free.

the color of you..

Just a cut

Just a scratch

It wouldn't hurt

It wouldn't last.

It would fade

Fade into blue

the color of sadness

the color of you.

New month, old beginning..

A new month has begun

but my heart is still there 

the place which my mind thinks

is the best one for me

the place which lies inside her heart

the place which wasn't mine

the place which isn't mine

the place which never will never be mine.

But then 
I starve 

for a single glimpse 

of her beautiful face

the face 

which always reminds me 

how enchanting this world can be

how painful this feeling can be

this feeling of loneliness

where 

I usually get lost

until 

a tear drops down my cheeks 

and vaporises within a second

due to the heat 

of the burning soul.