Letters.

I put my love in the letters I sent you.

The words, they are not shallow.

But, just don't look too deep into them

For you might drown.

Don't try to read between the lines

For you may get trapped

Struck between the metaphors

Dancing in those threads.

Look at them

But look passionately

With those small, starry eyes

Look at them

And know, they are the windows to my heart.

Look at them

And reach for the stars

The sky lit up

I'll be smiling and all.

Lonely the night will get,

The letters will be on guard.

Keep those letters forever,

And know, they are the windows to my heart.

Reflections.

There are times

When I want to sing 

Your name and mine

tangled in the same tune

dancing with the syllables

All the notes and nothings

Around  and around

Into the evening hours

There are times

When I have cried

Familiar faces 

Going away from being mine

Childhood ens far too early

So many nights forgotten

Sunday morning smile

prayers for the wrongs I committed

In the prior hours

There are times 

when I reflected on the memories

October took a piece of me 

everything was full of life

We never even wondered

About what would become of us

In the sunrise that followed.

FOREVER

I'm afraid of losing you forever

So I stay quiet

and shut my mouth

get on with things

but maybe it'd be better

if the words were said 

questions asked

feelings felt and dealt with

so that, even if I lose you

At least I'll know I tried 

I'm afraid of losing you forever

but night will turn to day

frost will melt away

and I'll learn to stop loving you

and I'll learn how to see 

my own reflection in the glass 

instead of your footprints

smudged across the surface

I'll learn to bask in sunlight

and read books by ponds 

and watch the sun sink 

behind orange clouds

and I'll do it all alone

and I'll be okay with that

I'm afraid of losing you forever

but even more so,

I'm afraid of losing myself

to a love that maybe 

isn't worth fighting for

I'm afraid of losing me forever. 

As I lay..

As I lay on the roof 

and watch the sky

I saw you 

take the leap then fly

As time passed by

you start to regret

That you took the jump 

that'll lead to your death

As you fall down

I rushed only to see

Nothing but sadness 

as your teardrops fall free

I know this'll cause 

my greatest heartbreak

But I let you fall down 

I'll be forever awake

As you neared the ground 

your fall was cut abrupt

You were surprised to see me 

as I lift you up

But as we rise 

you start to move astray

Now, I didn't even realize 

that you've already flown away

As I lay on the roof 

and watch the stars

My thoughts had already 

wandered off too far

As I close my eyes 

and clear my mind

I slowly accept 

that you can never be mine

An anticipation..

Bound by dignity

I look for greatness

In contribution's sake,

I'm a leech.

Lazy and in love with comfort,

I like things simple

Anything outside of now,

is a pretty dream.

Conditioned to exist,

I'm a greedy man.

Waiting not working

there is never time.

And without inspiration

I'll lay back down.

All my attention, gone

to unavailable realities

Heartache.

Feelings passed and hours have gone.

Distracted by these demons

of right and wrong

of fright and fear

anxiety now at its prime

I'd wince and whine

Or count the hours to the time I'd die.

Alone I feel, within this space

Slicing my arms in disgrace

Her face still stuck in my mind

Her eyes

Her hair

Her lips 

which I find so tempting.

But I am only wasting my breath

Shaking hands with ideas of death

Hoping this pathetic pain will subside

Till then this heartache is by my side.

P.S.  I LOVE HER

Ohh, you..

No one seems to understand,

Why I'm so attached to you.

Why I love you so very much.

Hell, I don't even know if I understand myself.

Maybe it's the way you make me feel.

The way you make me smile,

even when you are not around.

The way you always try to help,

when I'm down.

I just wish, my family and friends

would see you the way I do.

Because in my eyes,

you are beautiful.

Every flaw, every mistake,

everything about you,

makes you who you are.

And that is beautiful to me.

I have loved you from the very beginning,

And I'm afraid my heart will never give you up.

Or maybe I don't want to give you up,

Because I see something in you,

that I have never seen in anyone else, before.

I don't care if the world disagrees with me and you.

From the start it was meant to be true.

And you are the only one I love

and the only one I want to be with.

I will hold onto you,

no matter how many people try to tear us apart.

You will forever have my heart.