Delicate dreams..

Let me create a new language

device a new vocabulary

fill it with adjectives

which explains what I think of you.

Let me write you love songs

pages after pages

envelope those letters

and send them to you 

sealed with a kiss.

Let me make a home of this obsessed heart

and lead you to a solitary chamber

Let me keep talking to you

I wish I could keep looking at you

never let you leave

make you stay till the end of time.

Let me hold you in a manner

that makes you realize how much I missed you.

Let me be with you 

till my heart feels content.

Let me make your every moment magical

I will make up for every second we spend apart

Amplify the intensity 

with which my heart beats for you.

Let me share my all thoughts with you

unburden my heart and my mind,

Let me erase the concept of futility of love

from your conscience 

by loving you selflessly 

and valuing you for everything you are..

You're always loved..

Throughout all the years

seasons bring joy and pain

filled with smiles and tears

drowning in sunshine and rain..

When days are long

you have a friend

this love is with song

words to you I send..

Through gentle and stormy weather

my spirit is everywhere you go

feel it within your heart

you're loved more than you know..

With every sunrise and sunset

perfumed flowers in the air

pebbles stretched along the sands

knowing my soul is there..

As the endless sea 

with the words I say

my heart is with you always

you're loved every single day..

Fall in love with one..

Fall in love with one who sees you 

when you hide from yourself and calls you beautiful.

Fall in love with one who makes a home beneath your skin 

just to kiss your scars everyday.

Fall in love with one who chases a sunset with you

because they never want the day to end.

Fall in love with one who's always in your corner 

even when they can't always be your side .

Fall in love with one who breaks the chains around your tongue 

and sets the words in your heart free.

Fall in love with one who sets your white flag on fire 

and places a sword in your trembling hands.

Fall in love with one who reaches for your hand 

and ends up touching your heart.

Fall in love with one who picks you up, wipes the dust from your pages 

and tell you that your story is beautiful.

Fall in love with one who not only takes the pain away from you 

but also takes you away from the pain.

Fall in love with someone who is afraid to fly 

but grows wings to reach wherever you are.

Fall in love with one who looks at you 

like you've got everything they need.

Fall in love with one who teaches you to fly 

after the weight of the world has crushed your wings.

My pen and your paintbrush..

You painted me not just on canvas

or walls but on your heart.

You gave me wings 

and you are certain that 

I will always land back to you.

I wrote you, not just on paper

or walls but on my heart.

I gave you the power of the sun

and I know you will shine forever.

But lately my wings can't fly

and every time I stretch them

all I can feel is your hands.

It hurts 

It hurts a lot.

And lately, the sun hides

and every time I look at the moon,

all I can read is 

lonely

lonely

lonely.

Darling you know we're amazing.

We create things people marvel at.

Maybe you'll paint me a picture

and maybe I'll write you a poem,

but until we finally figure out

what I mean to you and

what you mean to me.

Maybe you should keep your colors

and I should keep my words.

Natural disasters inside You..

You were born with thunder rumbling in your mouth.

Your words were learned to be feared.

You were a flower that had begun to wilt,

covered by the shades of those towering above you

and when they stole the last ray of light,

you learned to become your own sun.

Lightening shown in your beautiful eyes.

Fierceness and a refusal to take any odds into consideration.

You struck hearts into beating again.

You struck hearts into thinking again.

Your soul is a flood raging over hills.

You are washing down every shore of the world,

drowning and sweeping away things,

that will never measure to your strength.

You are a Himalayan wildfire

Beautifully destructive and distinctively fearless.

You are a cracking heat in valleys

where thirst will never be quenched.

Don't be offended when they turn away,

some people just can't bear that heat.

You have grown into a refusal to let the natural disasters inside of you sit still. 

Ending in love..

Her smile is a

graceful beauty

on an ardent sky

like writing poetry

with a willow leaf

dipped in desire

an eternal verse

of sunrise surprises

moon shadow promises

and forever truth

in permanent ink

forever ending in love.

Music..

Listen

Hear it

Feel it

Pounding

Beating

Humming

Buzzing

Senses overwhelmed

Reality fades away

Time stops

Forever sounds pretty good

Lose yourself

Become one with it

It enters your soul

It pours through your body

Everything connects

It's all tied together

The light shines down

And you are there

Living

Breathing

Listening to the music..

Why do we care?

Why do people lead us on

Why do we think they care

one thing you learn

Is that no one ever cares

except your family

Even the person you love the most

Is the one that's the first to leave

You could give them your heart

even wear it on your sleeves

they'll still take advantage and leave

Since when is it fun to be alone

Never!

But its the safest for our well being

So why do people lead us on

Why do we think they care

because they played us

and its just not fair..

Letter to my BELOVED.

I wish I could explain how much I love you

But those emotions cannot be put into words

so I will never be able to let you know how much you mean to me

not even a sliver of what I feel you will understand.

I'm sorry I hurt you in the past

It's the  biggest mistake I've ever made

you cared about me

and I threw it away

I threw you away

but i was the one who was a piece of trash

I regret that I didn't take in your love

I regret that I pushed you away.

you are the only girl

who loved me

and cared for me

what else did i want from you?

I don't even remember.

I know that I'm mean to you sometimes

sometimes I hope you will say something mean back

but you never do

you roll with the punches

and I'm sorry that I keep hitting

I just want a reaction

something, anything

but your face is a stone

and I don't know what you're thinking

I hope it's about me though

I wish I could let you know

how much I care and wish

you would just care too..

P.S.  I LOVE YOU.

My Delightful pain..

I know someone,

who lives across the ocean,

whose beautiful face

In my memory slowly fades.

But after I hear her voice,

You might say this is hopeless,

It gives me no other choice,

All night to remain sleepless.

Hey, don't go back to the blue

My delightful pain.

Coz I can't stop loving you,

Again and again..

My soul has a color..

My heart can be compared to the northern lights

It is reflected in my dark brown eyes

That flash colors 

that no one can explain.

Blue is the base of all the other colors

all colors fade and melt into the blueness of my soul

My red passion mixed with my blue depression

turns into a lustful purple.

My heart's deep blue depths sparkle with life

flashing strands of neon green

rise from the depths to the surface and pool there.

Embers the colors of vibrant oranges, violent reds and golden yellow

burn in the deep blues

making my soul look angry and aggressive

though when the brave reach out to touch

they are not burned with the heat of fire

but by the fierce pain of pure ice.

I watch as if in a dream as my soul changes shape and color

Sometimes it's icy beauty takes my breath away

And causes tears to fill my dark flashing eyes.

My soul has the seasons like Earth

Winter,  Spring, Summer and Fall

Each season brings its own colors and feelings.

It is an endless color wheel that is alive and fills the room with its life

But sometimes there is no color.

and my soul goes black

and it takes love to bring the color back..

Loneliness..

Its not so bad

during the day

when the sun warms my skin

and the breeze cools my nerves

when my thoughts are preoccupied

with trivial tasks

Then day turns to night

and the sun lies down to sleep

the moon peaks through my blinds

its stark silver light casting ominous shadows

I wonder,

when I'll see you again.

They say that secrets seek refuge in darkness

But I find my innermost fears all the more illuminated..