I celebrate who I am..

I am a special person.

I was created with love.

I do not need to look like

or act like anyone else.

I am beautiful, just the way I am.

I love everything about me coz

God loves me just the way I am. 

I love who I am n I am enough.

I will not let other people make 

me feel bad about myself.

 I am loved by God, 

by my family and my friends.

I love God, 

my family n 

my friends.

I will sing,

I will laugh n

I will dance.

I will have fun coz 

I celebrate who I am.

There is no echo..

There is no echo

In the realms of hell

There is no soul

Hidden in an empty shell

There is no hope

For those seen unworthy

There is no scope

When you are unearthly

There are no dreams

When the nightmares call

There are no screams

Whenever you will fall

There is no echo

In the realms of hell

There is only the show

And no one to tell.

Winter..

I stand sadly by my window

Watching as winter once again

Claims all that surrounds me

I once loved this season

Of icy snow n shivering hands

and fires to keep me warm

But now I dread stepping outside

For I know I will never again

See your footprints next to mine..

She..

She is so beautiful

Long black hairs

eyes made by the stars

truely a majestic being

of course she has flaw

a limp when she walks

small weakening bones

A voice that lacks nothing at all.

It hurts me

To watch her hurt

watching everyday

death approaching slowly.

I thought I understood it

But I didn't.

Would she hear me screaming,

If I called her name?

Would she hold me falling,

If she knew my pain?

As it is...!!!

I want you like one

who only sees sun

through one window

well known in

the darkness alone

I yearn for you like

grass for morning dew

the sun for the moon

with the rising tide and

nighttime gloom

Your perfume drives me mad,

it drives me forward

towards the steep cliff

of self destruction

But there are such pretty

flowers down there

among the rocks

The way you talk

makes me feel alone

my desires still unknown to you

but my pain and time

are but sorry gifts

distractions from my short comings

How do you feel knowing I suffer for you?

How would you react to

knowing I die a little

when you smile?

the world around gets

drained of grandeur

with your beauty

so imposed and

thrilling to endure.

Your scent makes me mad,

its peppered with my own loneliness

Far more intense than a need

I want that perilous leap, though

I'm not a superman but

mistakes laid in heaps

at your feet.

Allow me home,

that fleeting feeling of it.

Shelter from the storm

that rages as time

wears a thin sin 

now left drably within

I will find your center,

with it my own,

in flesh and bone

I shall crumble

I am humbled

I am what you see

now before you.

Praying for a miracle..

Her adorable curiosity

Heartfelt sincerity

Rare honesty

Her heart's purity

Bring them back to me..

Her comforting words

The kind I've never heard

Seductive and mellifluous voice

Her contentment with me as her choice.

Bring them back to me..

Her arousing fantasies

Romantic gestures

Perfect heartache remedies

Keeping me safe with a mysterious vesture.

Bring them back to me..

The warmth of her skin

Soft whispers in my ears

Infectious wide grin

Her undying trust, gathering my tears.

Bring them back to me..

I'm not ready for another chapter

It's miserably unbearable

I know you are there, so please answer

My prayer for a miracle..

Just Fall..!!!

Fall in love with me.

I can't promise that I'll catch you

But the days we spend together

Will make it worth the fight.

Fall in love with me.

Be the first to discover me

Get me to open up

Know all my fears

And the songs stuck in my head.

Fall in love with me.

Tell me I look good

Even when I look like a mess

And make me feel

Like no one ever has before

Fall in love with me.

And please.

Make me fall in love

with you too..

Once again.. 

I wish...

I wish 

I could tell you 

how perfect you are to me.

I don't want a single day 

to be with u

And then 

forget about u.

I want to lie under the sky 

with you

and 

hold you close.

I want to make wishes 

on shooting stars.

I want to spend 

most of my time 

just being with you.

But I'm scared 

I don't know you

and 

You don't know me.

What will happen 

when you'll realize

I'm crazy.

Wot will happen

when u'll realize 

The first day I met you

I swore u were perfect.

Wot will happen

when u'll find out

I think about u all the time.

and gets hurt 

when you walk away from being mine.

I want to say all this to you..

But I know I'm going to delete this

And pretend 

it was never written.

I'll tell myself to keep it in.

To not fall in love, again.

To stop 

coz it'll probably never start.

But 

wot would happen 

If I'll send this to you?

I wish I had the guts to find out..

Do it yourself...!!!

There's nothing beautifully

tragic about wanting to slit

your wrist open and down

in your own blood

there's no one to wipe away

your tears and sing you a lullaby 

while you fall asleep in their arms

there's not going to be some

sort of miracle person that

will burst into your life and

take away all the tragedy and pain

you have to do it yourself

you have to pick yourself up 

brush off your knees and 

save yourself..

Forget-me-not

I keep digging, digging and digging.

Trying to dig myself out of this hole.

But it seems everything is collapsing around me

burying me with your soul.

This small shovel

Just doesn't seem to be enough.

No one thought to tell me

how life could be this rough

Now,

I'm just getting deeper and deeper

and deeper

with my unwanted thoughts

This shall be my grave,

but don't put any roses on top.

I prefer forget-me-nots.

WARS..

As my heart beats close to yours.

I still hear the wars.

The wars that go on outside but also through my head.

All the people who were left for dead.

I hear the shots and think of you one last time.

All I hear are the dimes.

All that we had left.

I know that you're finally laid to rest.

I will be with you soon.

The war is going on and I'm not immune.

Immune to the sickness and death.

"I love you" was your last breath.

As I cry myself in your arms.

I see a rainbow right after the storms.

I know you're there.

By my side filled with care.

Your hands are still warm.

Even in this ice storm.

Please don't leave my side.

This is the last time that I cried.

As I pick you up and start to run.

I can't outrun the gun.

I'm down on the ground.

I'm left and nowhere to be found.

Please remember me as our world ends.

We will always be more than friends.

I look up to the sky as the tears stream down my face.

"I'll be with you ..now in a better place."

Lost and found.

On and off

Lost and found

In and out 

That's our love-

I found you 

We celebrated with our feelings

Like it is forever.

There's a time we say 'hello'

And then a moment we say 'goodbye'

But nothing is constant

Words change

Moods change

Except the names etched in our hearts.

It will always be the same

I will always love you 

I will always believe in you...

If only I knew..!!!

If only I knew your deepest fears,

your goals, your dreams, your closest peers.

I'd love you for the rest of my years,

If only I knew.

If only I knew what made you sad,

the good, the great, the worst, the bad.

I'd love you as the best I've had,

If only I knew.

If only I knew how to make you stay,

my troubling heart will no more astray.

I'd love you until my very last day,

If only I knew.